Out of sheer idle habit, Inigo reaches over to try and press down the head again - except that means that this time he's instead poking Gerome's hand. Granted, that's something Inigo might do to try and draw the other's attention or tease him under regular circumstances, but under these more serious and vulnerable ones, it makes a slight blush appear on his cheeks as he quickly pulls his hand back rather than letting it linger.
At least that surprise gets him to quickly speak up, completely snapping out of his thoughts for the moment.
"It's not against my wishes."
He thinks. It's hard. He's never had to think about all of this in this way. He's never been in any circumstances like the ones here on the train. And while he's gotten used to the circumstances by now - mostly, anyway - Gerome being here brings in an entirely new and unexpected factor. It throws everything off just slightly enough for Inigo to try to see everything in a new light.
"I.. would like to. Be more open, that is." He hates thinking of it as hiding, so he won't use that wording, but he means pretty much the same thing. "I just.."
His words trail off, and he briefly bites his lower lip as he thinks.
Wouldn't wanting to be more open mean being open now as well? Being honest about what's kept him from doing so so far?
"I am afraid of burdening you. You know the kind of pressure we had on our shoulders back home. And while we may not have to deal with Grima or any war while we're here.. It's still rough. Even moreso for you, since you haven't even had the time to get used to any of this yet." How could he throw his own problems on top of all of that? Surely Gerome had enough to deal with already without also having to deal with a whole slew of dumb, dumb emotional problems that Inigo has. It feels too unfair to just throw those onto Gerome's plate too.
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At least that surprise gets him to quickly speak up, completely snapping out of his thoughts for the moment.
"It's not against my wishes."
He thinks. It's hard. He's never had to think about all of this in this way. He's never been in any circumstances like the ones here on the train. And while he's gotten used to the circumstances by now - mostly, anyway - Gerome being here brings in an entirely new and unexpected factor. It throws everything off just slightly enough for Inigo to try to see everything in a new light.
"I.. would like to. Be more open, that is." He hates thinking of it as hiding, so he won't use that wording, but he means pretty much the same thing. "I just.."
His words trail off, and he briefly bites his lower lip as he thinks.
Wouldn't wanting to be more open mean being open now as well? Being honest about what's kept him from doing so so far?
"I am afraid of burdening you. You know the kind of pressure we had on our shoulders back home. And while we may not have to deal with Grima or any war while we're here.. It's still rough. Even moreso for you, since you haven't even had the time to get used to any of this yet." How could he throw his own problems on top of all of that? Surely Gerome had enough to deal with already without also having to deal with a whole slew of dumb, dumb emotional problems that Inigo has. It feels too unfair to just throw those onto Gerome's plate too.